Disappointment is a Tough Pill To Swallow

I have discovered that it is very unusual for me to not have some kind of fall vacation planned. During this time of year you can usually catch me eagerly counting down the days until my next Walt Disney World vacation, or even an upcoming New Kids adventure (which was the case last year). This year, however, I will not be going anywhere. Depressing isn't it? Yeah, I think so too.

I had a great reason for not booking a fall vacation this year. I was attempting to save money for the upcoming New Kids on the Block cruise in May 2010. I missed last year's cruise and really wanted to be a part of this one. I suppose it wasn't meant to be. The entire booking process turned out to be such a mess. I was able to get into the system and enter all my information several times, but each time I clicked confirm I was kicked out of the system and had to start all over again. A deposit for the cruise was even taken from my bank account. I thought that meant that we had a chance, but after speaking with the company handling the cruise, I was told that we did not have a reservation. To say that this entire experience has been frustrating would be a huge understatement. Never in my life did I ever think I could be so heartbroken over something like this. The cruise will continue to remain the one New Kids dream that I could not make come true. It feels like I am missing an important piece to a puzzle I have been working on for a tremendous amount of time. I can see the piece, but I can't seem to get to it. I really wanted to be on that cruise and I know I am not alone in my sorrow. There are others who are feeling just like me and all I want to do is hug them. Disappointment is a tough pill to swallow. :(

I really should not be complaining though. God has blessed my life tremendously. Besides, complaining isn't going to make things any better and it certainly isn't going to make moving past this disappointment easier. To my fellow Blockheads who are dealing with these same feelings right now, I want you to know that you are in my thoughts. To those who were lucky enough to land one of those precious cruise spots, I sincerely hope you have a wonderful time. Please take lots and lots of pictures! I can't wait to see them all when you return. Oh, and if you think about it, would someone please give Jonathan a big hug from me? I know someone has my back on that one. Love you all!